Recently my life has been in the words of Will Smith “flipped-turned upside down.” I would say I regret some things I’ve done and decision I made over the past 6 months, but honestly I couldn’t be happier that I made them. I was so trapped in this monotonous haze I couldn’t see my way out. Now I’ve begun to clear the air and see my way through. So I guess I will categorize my brain and what is happening to attempt to explain my life to you and myself.
School: I finished up the semester better than I thought I would have half way through. I fucked up. Let’s be honest about the situation. I made a mistake. I took on too much and didn’t commit to the tasks I needed to complete. I gave up. I buckled down a little more when I understood just how much I screwed up. I started skipping class and playing on my computer a little too much. I ended up pulling nothing less than a B and ended the semester with a 3.43 and overall 3.84 GPA. I have to get A’s in my two summer classes top bring my GPA up.
Work: I’m convinced my boss hates me sometimes. I have nothing more to say about this besides working 8-5 is not very fun.
The Ex-Files: As most of you saw or knew I ended things with my ex two months ago. After two and a half years I didn’t know what the right thing to do was. Now obviously I’ve come to terms with my decision to call things off and I’m honestly proud of myself for leaving a relationship I was unhappy with. (I understand he will probably read this, but its my blog so I’m so posting whatever I want) I wasn’t unhappy in the sense that he was a bad boyfriend it just wasn’t working anymore. I was different, he sure wasn’t the guy I started dating two years ago. It was too comfortable. We began to resent one another, bicker, attack because we knew the other person would be there despite the harsh words and/or actions. After months of trying to convince myself everything was dandy. I finally realized I was so unhappy I couldn’t stand or him. I’d rather end things and attempt to be friends then hang in there any longer to attempt to salvage what had been broken months beforehand. Two months have passed, I’ve picked up the pieces and moved on.
College Mating Dating: This is foreign to me, but I’m learning. It’s all about the casual date/ drink. Boys in college literally want to fuck you or be in a relationship with you. And lets be honest they all want to fuck you and most of them just want to fuck you and get the fuck away from you the next morning. Mind you, this hasn’t happened to me. It’s just something I have observed. I’m having a hard time deciphering the good men from the terrible men and it seems to be like digging a nail out of a haystack. So, dates…I’ve been on a few! Which is good and they have been nice! I’ve also had some interesting times which are never to be discussed on the internet. Nothing to bad, mind you, but just a little too much for everyone to read. I’ve realized the key to college guys is being outgoing. Introduce yourself, smile, and you’re golden (and dating material).
I’ll add more to this later. Night.
